Where I've Been

It's been a long 6 years.  

I have had many things to say, but it never felt quite right to say them.  

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Not long after my husband's brain surgery, we found out that the adoption we so desperately wanted was not going to happen.  The circumstances were so out of our control.  Yet I knew they were not out of God's.  And I believed that it would come to be.  That God would supernaturally intervene and change the hearts of those who could do something about it.  The sweet girl that you prayed for is now 13.  We don't have any contact with her, but she is always in my thoughts.  

In the middle of that, the business that we had grown and nurtured had to file Chapter 11 bankruptcy.  And it felt so personal.  And mean.  And ugly.  And sad.  And it took 6 years to settle.  And we had to sell the house that we had built and loved. 

But God has been faithful.  And I've always been at peace.  

I can say without hesitation that I am thankful for it all.  

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Our sweet girl has gone to college!  We are fresh into this empty nesting thing.  It is a big change.  But it is good.  I remind myself often that raising our babies to leave is the point of the parenting thing.  

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I'd love to hear updates from anyone who might be reading.  

I have zero expectations that anyone is reading. Blogs aren't the same and I've started/stopped 317 times.  

And it's been actual years.  

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But for the one of you who might find me, how are you???

 

Comments

[Meredith]

Welcome back! Your blog has remained faithfully on my blogroll, and I'm glad to know how your journey has been.

[Jessica]

God Bless Feedly (and Google feed reader before them) I bet you'll find many of us still here :)

[Jenna]

So happy to hear from you! I'm a fellow NWA resident and think of your family occasionally. Thank you for the update!

[Sherilyn]

Yep, you showed up in my feedly too, & I was thinking about you not that long ago, wondering what was going on these days! Welcome back Queen B!

[D]

Still here & glad to read your update. I don't read blogs as much as I used to (follow more instagram) but still hang in there hoping to hear updates on some of my favorites. Thanks for the checking back in with the blog!

[Angie]

You popped up in my Reader Feed, and it made me so happy to see you back. I'm sorry for the hard things you've lived, but I'm thankful for your heart of trust and faith. It encourages me. Welcome back... I'm still reading. :)

[Angela Stone]

Oh wow. Isn't it incredible and hard at times how different things turn out than expected? We are in a hard season and it is a challenge at times to think of what our plans had been. His will be done but for now I just breathe.

[Jamie B]

So happy to hear from you! Goodness y'all have been through so much! What would we do without the Lord??

[Headless Mom]

You're back! (Again!) I went back to look at the few previous posts and I commented then too. Stalker much? Nah. Just my reader.

My girl has been married for 3 years. yes, 3 years!! My boys are (almost) 17 and 15 (yesterday.)

My goodness, you have been through a lot. God is faithful, though, and I'm glad to see that you are praising Him through it. That, right there, is the best part.

I'm only sporadically blogging but November is coming and I still do NaBloPoMo, so watch out! ;-)

[Beth]

It's so funny, the way this life twists and turns. Adoption has never been on our radar, and yet, 4 days ago, a sweet little boy moved in with us and we are pursuing his adoption. I am so sorry to hear about La Princesa and how that did not work out - but God has her, and you know that. And I start and stop blogging all the time, too, and was surprised today to click over here and see your recent post. :) We've never met, and I never commented much on your blog, although I read faithfully, but seeing your post is like hearing from an old friend. Blessings, Beth

[Tracy]

I love when I see a post from you. Your blog was one I used to love reading! So sorry to hear you've been through such hard things but I've read the post after this one and I know you've used it as a time for growth and leaning on Jesus. Thank you for being honest & real. Hope you're daughter is enjoying college! I have one that's in his third year of college and one in her senior year of high school. That empty nest thing is creeping up on us.