(In) Security

There are some of us who feel the peace and love of God when everything is going perfectly.  When everyone is well and the budget is working and the future is looking relatively calm.

And.

There are some of us who feel the peace and love of God when life is in chaos. When life is uncertain and questions aren't answered and the future is not somewhere your brain dare roam.

I would be a member of the chaos club.

It feels backwards.

And ridiculous.

But when things are going smoothly, I feel insecure.  

I'm afraid to be comfortable.

I think it may be because I came to know the abundant love of Jesus during a time of trial, but I long to confidently receive the love of Jesus when things are rolling easy.

I don't want to keep hiding and waiting for the next disaster.

I know that it is a lack of faith.  And not how God works.

Can anyone relate?

Comments

[Angela]

Absolutely. We have more chaos than calm in our life and I've noticed that when things calm its nice for a while. Eventually though I start to wonder what our next struggle/trial/challenge will be and soon enough discover it. I have found though that it is helpful to enjoy that calm and strengthen your relationship with Him during that time because it will give you all the more strength when it is needed.

[Angie]

I hear you. When things are calm, I often wonder when the next shoe is going to drop. Which is not at all how God works. Why do I think he _likes_ to have my life chaotic and struggling? I need the Gospel every day!

[d]

So true, and the longer I know God the more I realize I am like this and need more faith.

[Shannon]

His power is made perfect in our weakness!